你。。。后悔过吗？

I looked up the sky tonight. The moon is beautiful. Is that you smiling to us? Everything still feels so unreal. I miss you. I miss Onew, Key, Minho and Taemin. It's the second day of new year and I'm feeling so blank, so terrified of the future. 

只要专注工作，我就不会去想你已离开的事实。我的心就暂时不会痛。是因为你们是我的精神支柱，所以我就那么依赖你们？一想到如果有一天，你们不再在我的生命里，我突然感到害怕，好空虚。

I had a bad dream last night but I managed to wake up. But for this nightmare, I won't be able to wake up from it, I have to stay in it forever. By any chance, did you ever... regret? I shouldn't even think of this. It just makes me even more saddened. What if you really did regret but it was too late... 

有谁的人生没有遗憾的？只有在失去后，我们才后悔当初为什么没珍惜。他走也快三年了。如果当时我没那么绝，如果我当时还对他有一点关心，或许他家人就不会失去他了。